I’ve been at work for two hours today and have yet to actually do anything related to my job. Maybe that’s because it’s Friday, but more likely, it’s because I feel like I’m beating my head against a brick wall every day of the work week.
When I met with Barry, my counselor, this week, I brought up my concerns / desires to investigate other possible career options. He gave me a laundry list of questions that I need to answer with several bullet points. I know what he’s doing…he’s trying to collect information that will tell him where my interests lie so we can point me in the direction of something I’m passionate about.
I don’t know how well that’s going to work. I started going through the questionnaire yesterday and my answer to “what do I enjoy?” didn’t include anything that actually relates to a job. But maybe that’s what he’s looking for. I enjoy reading, philosophical discussions, working out, baking, etc. Is there a job out there that includes these things?
Deep down, I wonder if I’m going through a mid-life crisis. My boyfriend, Gary, has been unemployed for over a year and is now trying to pursue his passion to teach as he looks for a job. My brother, Phil, is actively pursuing his dream of creating and selling his own graphic design items (invitations, newsletters, flyers, and the like…he’s really good…check out his new website: www.philteredgraphix.com). Maybe I’m envious that both of them are taking a chance on making a change. All I really do know is that I have got to find something that challenges me every day. My brain is atrophying.
© Hilary Clark and “Pining for Poetry & Prose”